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Birthday

September 30

Location

DF, Mexico

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About Me

Acerca de mi? LEE MI DIARIO!!

We each have our own path to tread. That seems such a
simple and obvious thought, but in a world of relationships
where so many people sublimate their own true feelings and
desires in consideration of others, we take many steps off
that true path.
In the end, though, if we are to be truly happy, we must
follow our hearts and find our way ALONE.

Interests

D&D, medi stuff, movies, music, vampires, zombies, BOOKS, videogames, sports, box, vampires, rice, TV, MOVIES, fronton, girls...nah..not in the mood right now...., xbox, did i mentioned movies?

Favorite Music

too many.... guess my favorite styles are Country and Alternative.... along with good ol´ 80s-90s rock.
 

Favorite Movies

stupid screen wont accept more than 10,000 letters....

well... Constantine, Gladiator, Forest Gump, Brave Heart, Pulp Fiction, Interview with the Vampire, Underworld, Jerry Mcguire, Mouline Rouge, LoTR, etc etc
 

Favorite TV Shows

same shit.... blah

well atm.... DR.HOUSE!! (he rocks!!) Heroes, MALCOLM!!!!!!!!!!! used to love The Simpsons but.... they´re not funny anymore :(

etc etc
 

Favorite Books

R.A. Salvatore
Forgotten Realms : Legend of Drizzt
1. Homeland (1990)
2. Exile (1990)
3. Sojourn (1991)
4. The Crystal Shard (1988)
5. Streams of Silver (1989)
6. The Halfling's Gem (1990)
7. The Legacy (1992)
8. Starless Night (1993)
9. Siege of Darkness (1994)
10. Passage to Dawn (1996)
11. The Silent Blade (1998)
12. The Spine of the World (1999) (with Philip Athans)
13. Servant of the Shard (2000)
14. Sea of Swords (2001)
and many, many, many more....
 

Favorite Quote

"It´s not all demons and magic in this world. Sometimes a simpler answer suffices."

¨The greatest thing you´ll ever learn... is to love and be loved in return¨

¨This is my BOOMstick you primitive screwheads!!!¨
 
 

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When the road is not filled with adventure, when there are no monsters to battle and no mountains to climb, boredom finds me.... I have come to accept this truth of my life, this truth about who I am, and so, on those rare, empty occasions I can find a way to defeat the boredom.... I can find a mountain peak higher than the last I climbed...But I fear that my state has transcended simple boredom, spilling into the realm of apathy. I was a creature of action, but that doesn't seem to be the cure for this lethargy or this apathy.....I will not heed that call.... The call from my friends neither my family...It is neither humility nor weariness stopping me, I recognize, nor any fears that I cannot handle the position or live up to the expectations of those around me..... Any of those problems could be overcomed, could be reasoned through or supported by my friends..... But, no, it is none of those rectifiable things.....

It is simply that I do not care.


I fear this above all else, for it is a loss that knows no precise cure. And yet, to be honest, I see it clearly etched in my features, a state of self-absorption where too many memories of my own recent horrors cloud my vision.... Perhaps I don´t even recognize someone else's pain. Or perhaps, if  I  see it, I dismiss it as trivial....
Loss of empathy might well be the most enduring and deep-cutting scar of all, the silent blade of an unseen enemy, tearing at our hearts and stealing more than our strength..... Stealing our will, for what are we without empathy? What manner of joy might we find in our lives if we cannot understand the joys and pains of those around us, if we cannot share in a greater community?

I am not certain that I even have that capacity left in me, for imagination requires introspection, a reaching within one's thoughts.....
I am surrounded by friends, who love me and will try with all their hearts to support me and help me climb out of my emotional dungeon. Perhaps the woman I once loved (and perhaps still love) so deeply, will prove pivotal to my recovery..... It pains me to think bout her, I admit. She treated me with such tenderness and compassion, but I know that I didn´t  feel her gentle touch. Better that she slapped my  face, eye me sternly, and show me the truth of my lethargy.... I know this and yet I couldn´t tell her to do so, for our relationship was much more complicated than that. I have nothing but her best interests in my mind and my heart now.....Even though I do not know her honest feelings towards me, who once was to be her husband –for she has become quite guarded with her feelings of late - I do recognize that i am not capable of love at this time.

Not capable of love ... are there any sadder words to describe a man?

I think not, and wish that I could now assess my state of mind differently. But love, honest love, requires empathy.... It is a sharing-of joy, of pain, of laughter, of tears......  Honest love makes one's soul a reflection of the partner's moods..... And as a room seems larger when it is lined with mirrors, so do the joys become amplified.... And as the individual items within the mirrored room seem less acute, so does pain diminish and fade, stretched thin by the sharing......
That is the beauty of love, whether in passion or friendship..... A sharing that multiplies the joys and thins the pains.....  I am is surrounded now by friends, all willing to engage in such sharing, as it once was between us. Yet I cannot so engage them, cannot let loose those guards that I necessarily put in place .....

I´ve lost my empathy..... I can only pray that I will find it again, that time will allow me to open my heart and soul to those deserving, for without empathy I will find no purpose.... Without purpose, I will find no satisfaction....Without satisfaction, I will find no contentment, and without contentment, I will find no joy....



And that.... as sad as it sounds.... it´s my legacy.....

bye

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Jul 1, 2008 8:46 AM
 
que mala onda pero espero y para la prox me avisas ok estamos en contacto bye
 
Jun 27, 2008 7:35 AM
 
hola como has estado que cuentas de nuevo organiza algo nop
 
May 27, 2008 12:52 PM
 
Muy buenos videos!!!! Ya dejate ver ok t mando un abrazo.
 
May 19, 2008 12:05 AM
 
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May 10, 2008 7:25 PM
 
ok, felicidades has estado trabajando duro... te paso al rato mis comentarios.
 
Apr 28, 2008 6:30 AM
 
VAmOs aL dE NiGhTwIsH....YO TaMpOKo TnGo Kon KIeN iR......!!!!!!
 
Apr 25, 2008 6:42 PM
 
Te pasas, se supone que pusiste tu numero de celular para contactos urgentes y no contestas, vas a ir al concierto de NW?
 
Apr 17, 2008 10:47 AM
David says:
 
jaja, por nada. Si te está quedando chingón.
y ya lo de bite, ps creo que ahora si ya no
le entro :P
jajaja... como te metí yo a esa madre... ya contagiaste
a medio mundo y ahora ya me salgo yo del vicio ese...
juajua
 
Apr 14, 2008 12:01 AM
 
Comment
 
Apr 10, 2008 9:50 AM
David says:
 
jajaja... inga tu madre... ¬¬
 
Apr 10, 2008 9:13 AM
 
Uy pues que sentido :P, oye ya le dije anoche a Rodolfo que te avisara que pex, no se si te diria algo o no?, pero ya esta avisado ok?, que estes bien bye.
 
Apr 9, 2008 9:25 PM
 
Hola tu, te envio detalladamente la contestacion de el comentario que me enviaste.

Punto numero uno: me disculpo por querer bromar a mi amigo con el mensaje que se encuentra en la parte de abajo, prometo no volverlo a hacer :((por cierto era sarcasmo porque la vez pasada que fuiste a lo de los juegos yo no fui y te avise que iba a ir).

Punto numero dos:que quede claro que no era mi obligacion avisarte, porque te he de informar que cuando yo llegue a casa de Oscar los demas ya estaban ahi y a mi me informaron que tu ibas a llegar para ver lo de tu depa y el cumple de Rodolfo, pero nunca llegaste, asi que yo!! no se(para mayor informacion favor de preguntarle a Oscar y a Rodolfo).

Punto numero tres: si lei el diario de Rodolfo porque el me lo pidio y me dijo que pusiera mi opinion o un comentario y tu ni siquiera me avisas que escribes algo, asi que no te pongas loco y me reclames eh!!!!, aparte de que si yo no te envio mensaje o comentario ni me saludas grosero!!!!

Punto numero cuatro: NO quiero que me invites a ninguna fiesta porque ya te conosco que ni me invitas :P, ni aunque te pusiera mil comentarios eh!! asi que no te pongas exigente, por cierto no me agrado tu tonito en el que me contestaste el comentario eh! claramente lei 6 no, asi que ya entendi que NO vas a sacar la fiesta o invitar las chelas.

Y punto numero cinco: como yo si soy buena onda y no me pongo exigente, en cuanto le pregunte a mi amigo Rodolfo que onda con lo de su cumple te avisare.

En fin portate mal, saludos y besos.
 
Apr 7, 2008 11:28 PM
 
Hola flojo ya ponte a hacer algo bueno y si no por lo menos saca la fiesta o la invitacion por las chelas, con eso de que quedas de ir a la casa de Oscar que por unos juegos y no vas jajajaja, ya dejate ver saludos.
 
Apr 7, 2008 8:30 AM
 
aver ya csai acabo la escena de los dildasos, solo falta esa animacion, asi ke sube lo de la caeteria
 
Apr 2, 2008 9:43 PM
 
chido ke lo subiste eeeeee ya subelo
 
Mar 28, 2008 10:56 AM
Tarek says:
 
Nah ya de tele me sali hace un ratote, ya luego entre a otro lado igual ya renuncie, esto de los call centers nomas no es lo mio
 
Mar 27, 2008 7:03 AM
 
necesito ke sbas la descripcion de josafat y de blank, porke no em acuedo ke demonos decia.... aahhhhh
 
Mar 25, 2008 12:34 PM
vicky says:
 
Ja ja!! No me referia a lo de Rambo si no a lo de la sociedad que impone reglas.. bla bla bla bla, casi te escuchaste como el taras de tu tio!!!La casa ahi va lento lento pero ya se ven cambios pero cada vez Gordito quiere cambiarle mas cosas!!! Pero ya pronto nos vemos en Mexico llego el 4 de abril en la noche, asi que nos veremos pronto por alla, espero que tengas ese depa limpio!!!!!Y ya no te hagas guaje y pagame la renta!!! Besos
 
Mar 24, 2008 10:31 PM
 
Gracias!!
 
Mar 24, 2008 9:51 PM
 
asi no puedo continuar, falta lo de a cafeta y el gym ,,,,,,


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